I was reading the past few entries of this blog and realized that as an online diary, it’s not a very good record of the times. This is probably for several reasons, the most immediate one being that I can’t get my brain together for long enough periods of time to write coherently about everyday happenings. So I guess I sort of glaze over stuff and just give a general big picture of what’s happening. I will probably regret this later.
I am already forgetting how little Sammy was when he was born, or how he cried, or how his little cat tongue curled in his mouth when he was screaming. OK, that one I haven’t forgotten, but with all the cuteness coming, I am sure I will eventually.
Drew and I often wonder what we used to do before we had a baby. Watch a lot of bad TV, eat out, go shopping, hang out at home, go to the beach, take long drives. That’s pretty much it. And strangely, that’s still what we do, but now we have this little creature along for the ride. I mean, here we are, it’s Monday evening. Drew is watching MTV (his favorite guilty pleasure), and I am sitting at the computer. The only difference is that Sammy is snoring in the background and his favorite new rattle is sitting next to my laptop.
I often catch myself at work with a strange sense of deja vu… It’s not even that… I am not sure what to call it. But I’ll be sitting in a meeting or walking around the office and suddenly think: “Wow, I’ve been here before, when I didn’t have a baby. I sat in the same meetings with the same people, talking about pretty much the same topics. And now here I am again, like nothing has change. Except everything has.” I don’t know if this makes any sense.
So, for the everyday stuff: yesterday was mother’s day. My first. It was OK. I sort of screwed myself, because we celebrated early, on Saturday, so on Sunday I felt a bit jibbed. New rule: mother’s day has to be celebrated the day of, not before or after. Have to remember next year. Oh, we did get to nap together in bed in the morning, and that was heavenly.
Sam wrote me a card:
He is getting so big! He is starting to grab and pull his bottle to his mouth and also push it away when he is done. This is helpful – takes some of the guessing out of every feeding. He is also doing much better on his belly and might turn over soon. He likes to do baby crunches – when he is on the changing table, he will pull up his legs and his head and torso, like a mini sit-up. It’s so funny. It also makes him spit up, which we definitely don’t need more of.
We’ve been taking him to a little play group on Saturdays. I think he is a bit too small for it, especially because all of the other babies are older, but it’s fun to see him check out the other kids and grab at the toys. He is starting to have some favorite toys, although it’s hard to tell at this point. He has a little green doll/rattle thing that he likes to hold and he also likes his colorful links above his bed. But he is just as happy to play with his binky or his bib. No need for expensive toys! That’s one thing the play group made me think of: how do you resist the temptation to buy $16 rattle because you believe that it will make your child smarter? I am not sure I will be good at this resistance… I haven’t placed my Amazon order yet, but I am afraid I will.
Babies are expensive.